A Tender Valentine's Day...

好瘋狂 現在想起來 也難怪當時沒男友 哪個男生脫線會找像我這樣的! 但是 我只想做自己, 全方位的去過我的生活: 努力工作用心玩! I read/write/love. 如果誰只從外表來斷定我膚淺的話, well fuck u, say no more!!


今天才是真正的情人節, falls on a Saturday...

上禮拜我一直不斷抱怨沒時間去游泳和游泳帶給生活的好處. friday他帶我去吃晚飯時, 趁著去洗手間的空檔跑到對面的A9拿他訂好的一個項鍊送我(well..it supose to be my x'mas gift), 後來寄了一封E-Mail到我公司信箱, 希望我星期六能給他一整天, 什麼都不用想不用安排, 下午先回家梳洗打扮, 他說要先回台北去拿個東西, 約好2點半來pick me up, 唯一要帶的東西就是泳裝, 坐上車, 他馬上笑吟吟奉上一個藍色小盒子company with a white ribben..裡面是和他手上帶的戒指..對戒
正當我開心的在車陣中睡著, 醒來時我們已在某大百貨公司地下停車場, 當我還恍恍惚惚時, 才發現我是在有Heavenly bed 之稱的westin hotel...手上的Tiffany..脖上的4 C......緩緩走進他訂的房間, 換上我的泳裝, 走進Hotel的高級健身中心, 優雅的游個幾圈泳, 再爬上岸, 淋浴完, 換上我的evening dress..."晚餐到遠企的馬可波羅"他這樣溫柔的說.....

I think my heart just mealted..

Diary & Summary

有好一陣子沒來紀錄了, Chinese New Year後就一直在忙新的東西, 根本沒時間來update
今年的Chinese Lunar Year可說是為了省錢而不出去消費, 從2月4號就先偷跑放了自己一天假, 趁著過年人潮都還沒出現好好去賣場買些平常想逛但沒時間的section, 譬如說書報雜誌和電視. 接下來...就是我苦命的假期了, 首先, 4號晚上就開始把房間大移位, 想說先把東西都翻出來, 這樣才好把我那許久不用的電視和櫃子丟掉....但這才是惡夢的開始...當我把抽屜的東西都整理出來還擦過一遍, 才發現我的地板很髒, 根本不能放擦好的東西. 就把擦過的東西移到床上, 想說先把地板擦了我就可以坐在地上整理東西, 但等我地板擦好, 要把東西移到地上時才發現床邊有.....2004年的IKEA目錄, 突然想到Teresa答應我今年要幫我換一個新的床, 就開始看起目錄..等我看完..也已夜深人靜了~~想說離過年還有3天

Valentine's day

原本不打算過Valentine's day, 起因是和現在的男友相處遇到瓶頸, 加上他也沒有特別計畫什麼活動, 所以原本決定待在家休息直到前男友在網路上問我今天是否有plan, 出於和他分手後的罪惡感和關心, I decide to have a afternoon tea break with him, 但是當男友打電話時, 我決定告訴他今天我決定和前男友見面, 這件事讓他馬上不爽到極點, 但我想, 你對今天沒有任何計畫, 也同意今天不見面,let's no take a big deal of the valentines day, 又什麼不能讓我和朋友出去見面, 在他抗議的同時他馬上飛車到我家要帶我出去, 但我說什麼也沒有心情, 前兩個月的瘋狂開銷讓我現在連買罐洗面乳的錢都拿不出來, 對前男友的食言而肥讓我更是自責到極點, 最近的金錢狀況讓我對生活沒安全感...這些種種還要我去應付一個被忌妒和沒安全感沖昏頭的幼稚男友, 明知道我的生活狀況還要自以為浪漫的帶我去逛精品店(拜託, 心知肚明你也不買我也不買, 去看那些有前有閒的漂亮情侶選購情人節禮物還要忍受店員虛情假意的問候, 幹麻呀? 我們之間虛偽的情感還不夠裝飾這個讓人作嘔的情人節嗎?), 在受夠一切後, 他終於了解到我們之間是沒有所謂的浪漫情人節這件事, 開車到一個不知名的公園想浪漫一下, 但此時的我已經受夠了, 我告訴他今天會出來也是因為他知道我可能會有活動, 不然的話他不也樂的輕鬆又可以省了一筆禮物或晚餐的錢, 但是他只會瘋狂抱怨這一切都是我的錯, 是我不想過因為我不想花錢, 或是他早就問過我要不要過是我自己說不要之類幼稚的話..

god! i had enough with this man....this is the most horrible valentine's EVER!
All I want to say is...who doesn't want a romatic valentine's day, with flowers, nice dinner with a comfortable chair and tasty wine? who doesn't want a surprise gift with thoughtful bf and intimancy? but none of them show up in my valentine's day!!!! All I had is for V-day is gealousy, angry, uncomfortable and childrish!

Vicky v.s. 鯊姐

This a long time friend of my, Vicky Tseng

Vicky 是我在澳洲唸ICHM同期的同學兼室友, 大我3歲, 和我一樣都是天平座, 她目前有一個交往4年多的男朋友叫大鵰, 在竹科當電腦工程師, 大鵰的名字是我取的, 所以我也自然而然的有了小鵰的綽號,
Vicky這一生最享受的事就是吃美食. 在墨爾本實習的那一年我們幾乎每個禮拜都上五星飯店吃高級料理, 或是在皇冠賭場邊看噴火秀邊吃甜點, 吃這件事似乎成為那年我們在外實習最大的安慰, 所以那一天我和他都胖了不少, 但是我回到台灣後就瘦了下來, Vicky卻一直維持50幾公斤的體重. 我想這應該是他從澳洲帶回來最棒的紀念品吧, 所以我常跟他開玩笑, 要是他瘦不下來, 老了可以去新加坡表演木瓜秀, 然後把陳今佩幹掉成為鯊姐二號, 一來不用擔心老了沒錢, 二來老了也不乏沒有男人追~

He is just so cute!!

He is so cute!!
最近發現了一個超可愛的男生~好可愛喔, 非常像潘瑋柏型的男生~
everyone know's Im not the type of girl who attracts by the cute type of guy, I am always more into the "man kind of guy" 但是可能是年紀大了吧, 還是最近我的戀愛因子蠢蠢欲動,
每見他一次我全身的細胞就緊繃的排成一條線, 喉嚨突然之間很乾很緊, 而且會莫名其妙的好心情, no..it't more like nature high..這種感覺好像在談戀愛一樣的奇妙, 天哪! I am not fall in love again, am I????????!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh My God! Julian Fitz!

早上不小心在網路上發現了Julian Fitz 的一些消息, 我想跟我夠熟的朋友都會知道Julian這一號人物
在這我也不必再多敘述. 我是在ICHM 的 News Magazine發現他在2002年(also known as our second stage)去了大陸北京的Hilton實習, "Different to sophisaticated Singapore, hospitality and tourism is relatively new to Beijin and,..berr.. indeed, China, and needs to develop drastically"..well...apprentlly他那邊說話邊喝醉的習慣真是一點沒變. 不過再次看到他的消息真的是讓我開心了好一會, 特別是看到其他的同學畢業後遍布世界各地工作, 讓我的回憶馬上回到當年一年級瘋狂的Party生活. 當然也有很多其他同學的消息. Olga Matova在布拉格的Marriotte Hotel做Guest Service, Martin Godwin(a.k.a. Vicky暗戀的對象)在南澳的Hotel當櫃檯經理, 還有我最討厭的Rodrigo竟然也畢業了!! 突然之間很想回去唸書...

Another decision...

Everything start with a coffee and a weekend's afternoon
People say" life is all about making decision"
I spend whole weekend watching the famous HBO TV episode "Sex and the city" starring by Sara Jessica Parker, Kim Cattrall, Cynthia Nixon and Kristen Davis. I watched the 6th season also the last season and here is some of my review.
I believe everyone intrigued by their amazing outfit and glamour dress, 生活在多采多姿的 big apple city-New York and每周遇到各式各樣的人~有男人也有女人, 她們出入各式高級俱樂部, 私人健身中心, fine dinging out..偶而瘋狂的girls night out, 她們買華服, 對昂貴的時裝迷戀不已, 卻也愛路邊小攤的首飾. 我相信這是很多現代女生嚮往的生活, 我也不例外, 但我真正admire的是她們的勇氣, 別忘了, 在生活中她們的年齡可都是40上下, 現實生活40上下的女性不是結了婚就是離了婚, 偶而也有單身事業成功的女強人, 但私下不是沉迷宗教, 就是心靈療法, 或是自怨自艾10年前情人的背叛導致現在對感情的陰影. 再不然就是抱怨這抱怨那~~~ 但我身邊真的很少聽到像他們這樣活的精彩, 放縱自己, 不顧與論, 大吃大笑, 對過往的不愉快和痛苦用最直接的的方式面對, they yell, they swear, they ate like pigs and say goodbye to the bad luck, 重要的是她們從沒對生命和生活放棄過, New York或許是最刺激的城市之一, 但NY也充滿了罪犯, 骯髒的街道, 昂貴的物價, 虛偽的人群, 這一切都不能說是讓人感到愉快的事物吧, 但還是有人在一切不愉快中活出自己. 最後一季的Sex and the City很鼓舞人心, 值得大力推薦

長大 v.s. 變老

There is a big differences between growing up and turing old; everyone will getting old, there's no exception, but not everyone is growing up. growing up is about learn from everything in your life or changes, lives without regreting, with time goes by, people usually will not regret from the things they have done, but they will regret not done it early. So dont regret from anything and live with brave~~its from an old friend of mine, he is 66 years old, and now is in his first year of the university. he once told me he wants to do things before he is too old to regret, so he starts from the simple one-go to school. Even people in his age still have such amazing passion to life, so why dont we do so??

Start to figur things out~

經過這幾天的摸索, 開始慢慢了解網頁這玩兒意是需要時間去經營的,
前幾天都在研究如何界著HTML排版讓自己的照片可以在每篇post上面用不一樣的方式呈現,
但是看過很多blogger後才發現其實大部分網頁分成兩大類~作品類&文章類
作品類就是看起來很炫, 很漂亮, 同時有很多照片或連結, 偶而有些article or diary穿插其中
文章類的網頁就是以文字為主, 有很多專業的學說發表啦, current affair, 或是個人日記
看完後才覺得我的小站好空洞喔~我要趕快加一些東西上去

馬上來試試新的表格

Jacky是我英文家教的學生, 12月31號剛滿10歲, 從去年8月份開始上課, 算算也快半年了.他算是我教過的小朋友裡面長的可愛的, 成績時好時壞, 我稍微鬆懈一點點就會反映在他的成績上, 但是上課過程還蠻愉快的, 不過他皮起來的程度也讓我很頭痛, 不過Sylvia老師可是"愛的教育"的愛好者, 通常我都用S.H.E.的簽名照和巧克力來利誘他. 但是最近學校放寒假, 沒考試又不用上課, 家教的時候他也越來越放鬆, 有時鬆到會自故自的唱起歌來, 或是問我一些很無聊又無關上課的問題, 譬如說" Sylvia~why the hyena eats other animal?? can't they eat grass for living like giraffe does?(譯: 老師~為什麼鬣狗吃其他動物維生, 為什麼他麼不像長頸鹿一樣吃草呢)" 心想:我是在上英文課還是生物課呀? 但是生為一個老師, 對所有的問題要一是同仁, 即使是跟課堂無關的問題也要有能為學生指點迷津的精神, 我總不能說 "你煩不煩呀, 肉食性動物的消化系統、牙齒、下巴結構與身體功能,等特徵在各方面都與草食性動物完全不同, 牠們的門齒和犬齒都特別發達是未了方便殺死及撕裂獵物還有他們生來就喜歡吃血淋淋的屍體呀" 我想等我說完, 我下次也不用去上課了" 所以我回答" well, that's because hyena offenced god in the past, so the god punish them to eat dead animals stink body to living forever (譯: 因為呀, 鬣狗在古代曾冒犯天神, 天神在一怒之下就罰牠們吃臭掉的動物屍體過活) 雖然用迷信的方法教育小孩也沒好到哪去, 總比告訴他事實後嚇的他大哭來的好吧~~

Yes! Yes!

研究了好幾天的HTML, 對我這個網頁新手來說真是困難, 不過在我不畏艱難, 及不顧無情同事嘲笑(是的,Sammy, 我就是在說你) 終於讓我找出我要的方法了, 請見"成功嶺日誌" 那篇, 總共是3個table, 每一個table下另加一篇文章. 教我設置第一個網站的同事Sammy小姐, 是常替我解決一些網站疑難雜症的人, 不過昨天的問題實在是太複雜了, 所以他竟然提出了一個超爛的建議"乾脆用別的網頁" 我咧!@#$%^&*())_+
不過幸好我天平座吱吱不倦的精神, 還是讓我研究出來啦!! 真是超爽的!!!!!!看到Sammy臉上羨慕又忌妒的眼神真是我最大的安慰呢!!!

It's not an easy decision....

After picked him up in the airport, he finally jumped out the question...
"Are we or aren't we?" behind the sentence is like he begging me to stay,
I cried out and let the answer kill his last hope...
before he left my car, he ask me if I still plan to go to Jennifer& Paul's wedding with him.

It's my longest relationship ever, also the hardest decision I ever made,
I know how the society judge the people like me, "oh, he quit the million dollars job and come back TW for you, how can you betray him?" “It’s not easy these days to find a nice man who is respecting you, loving you, and most importantly wanting to marry you?"(Although I am not worry about that marry part) " "He is a American citizen, you only need to marry him to live in US, isn't that's what you want? to live aboard?"
I heard these questions from people all the time, but nobody care about the reason I’m still with him was because I do love this man. If the essential of relationship has gone, is it still necessary to keep a relationship going??

2005/1/09 Sun, 成功嶺

Mon infront of dorm 媽媽因為難得出遊, 想在修成的寢室外照相留念, 我就快速的幫她照了一張, 結果沒想到被修成唸了一頓, 因為軍中是不准照相的, 沒想到他的姐姐和媽媽好像到了風景區一樣的觀光客, 抓緊機會就照, 還差點把站在附近的連長照進去了	Brother 這可是我們隔了兩個多禮拜看到的修成, 剃了個大平頭, 有點不好意思, 好像還不太習慣自己的新造型. 看到他進入一個新環境, 雖然是個全然不同的生活, 但也代表他進入人生中的第二重要階段- 當兵

Mom & brother 媽媽難得上鏡, 笑的眼睛都瞇起來了	Brother & his girl 他的女朋友6點多就到了, 第一次看到修成那麼開心的看到女朋友的樣子

His college friend 劉王偉 & 華岳 劉王偉還在當兵, 不過快退伍了 華岳是已退伍, 剛從馬祖回來, 這張照片很明顯是要讓修成感到 有頭髮和沒頭髮的差異	Me & Brother 5點多起床的我看起來精神還挺不錯的

Really down..

calling sick to work only becasue have nothing to do at work...good
aunt buy you a nice afternoon tea break....good...
forget to pay off expired parking ticket after a hard day of shopping.....hell its bad..

Im the kind of person who always wishes everything around me to be perfect, though I know perfection really doesnt always exist. And with this I usually end up getting disappointed. I start to learn how to tolerate things and remain quiet.
Nothing to do can sometimes kill someone's talent so badly. (有志難伸呀)

Vanity Fair

If you've seen this movie before, or read the novel, than you shouldn't be disappointed with the plot. I just don't care for the up and downs that Becky Sharp must go through in life. Reese does a wonderful job and unlike the PBS version, she makes me like Becky and hope that she succeeds. She marries the man she loves, who loves her in return, and you think "oh what a sweet movie". Then the last half is completely different and you're left wondering whether you should hate or pity Becky. You feel so bad for her husband and just want things to work out. I'm a not sucker for a happy ending and if you are, you wont be disappointed. Great costumes, witty bantering between characters, but too much jumping in plot that is just enough to confuse you and detract from the overall movie.

Cafe Deco, HK

May 2004, Cafe Deco, HK
The sunset of tonight was amazing, the slashes of color knife throught the horizon. Next time I need to pull out my camera faster.

First travel with Peter

2004/6/25 Hong Kong Trip With Peter

16th Jan, Sunday afternoon

This is my first post, right now I'm just trying to get a sense of what this site is like.